Be Strong, Believe

outrage
7:30 AM Friday, November 09, 2007

thoughts. i have so much thoughts that i cannot pen them all down. i have so much issues to address and yet, expression is limited.

firstly, my audience. even if i wrote one full essay of it; it will be, hot air and no action. then again, actions will be nought if there is no moving flow of expressions. and i seriously doubt anyone will understand me.

and the depth of my thoughts, is . . . i dont know actually. i cant tell on my own. but i will say, if i ever keep quiet, my thoughts are flowing the fastest. most coherently, maybe not. but in the least, enough to keep me on the go and on the guard.

today i was silenced by you (well, almost) and i was slight bitter. in the sense that, i dont see why i have to be the one to be restricted when i am as much of a student as they are. in retrospect, i have seen the stupidity in their questions and the stupidity i have, to hold an emotion i dare not say, anger, but something truly unpleasant enough to make me out of self control for a minute or two.

i cant believe what else is the world is offering. for what my limited knowledge is telling me, i know there is something very wrong with the world. timothy friend, i understand your take on how short sighted most humans are. and i can tell you, the world is on slow genocide mode. correction: the world is evolving so fast that sooner or later, we will meet the end. i'm not prophecising anything. but if people can just stop and think for a while. it doesnt really take much to know that humans are most kneadable. their mindsets are so easily shaped and easily morphed; that once someone started fire on one revolutionary act, the world jumped at it and follow suit.

say, one accounts many human traits as animal instincts. the basic survival code. so what people do? they got competitive. as one competes to think further (though short term/ long term), they evolutionise so much so that we are using up resources faster than the grace is given for us. if we think slower, and act slower, the resources in the world will be given enough time to recover and recreate. right now, world's resources are running low, so low.

then we wont be thinking faster and trying to squeeze every last drop while we are still alive.

to put it nicely, humans are competitive, as driven by their basic animal instincts so as to survive.

why not, cut us some slacks and face the music. humans are plain greedy. i am no great human with supramundane virtues. i possess no right to criticise human mankind in general.

BUT, i am a rebel by nature. for fuck i should care about what stand i am in to criticise. for i know this world is already a crooked soul to start with, i dont see the need to be humble and polite for this.

for all the crooked but nevertheless beautiful souls i cherish so much, i love you so.

Love.

people gets skeptical about it. people are hurt by it. people are forever revolving about it. but do they know that it can be, the force to slow the world down? the force to give our earth extra time to recover and rejuvenate? if you think, loving is hard, you are only human. but if you know loving is hard but at the same time, magnificent; you are only a fool for love. but to be a human, i would choose to be a fool. for a fool know nought of setbacks and steadfast in loving and giving. salutation please.

you can be busy for all you know, but do love. do remember to love. leave time, generous amount of it, for loved ones. Listen to what they need. for you will slow down in your productivity rate, but at the same time saving yourself and the mankind.

for i have been too caught up in my own world. i am listening now. you have my attention. (:

cried and grew.