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Think about the love inside the strength of heart
Think about the heroes saving life in the dark
Climbing higher through the fire, time was running out
Think about the chance I never had to say
Thank you for giving up your life that day
Never fearing, only hearing voices calling out
Let it all go, the life that you know, just to bring it down alive
Be Strong
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Don't be shy. Cause I'm not. heh D:
I thought I saw the bumble bee.
Ah well. It's gonna be just you and me.
Ready?
Stay put where you are. Keep your soul and keep your heart. I'm loving y o u.
The world will little note, nor long remember what we say here, but it can never forget what they did here.
Hello, I am Jessica.
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do F a s h i o n related work/studies.
have a MAJOR CRUSH/INTEREST/FLING with branding and marketing related works/studies
am an art person. maybe has a flair but the talent is shaky and unstable. but recognises the depth of personal potential for arts. (:
I'm kinda brilliant. Mental note that aights? (:
Loves: Almost everyone.
Hates: Nothing really. Until you really know me i guess. (:
Jess kinda rocks; like big time ._.
fatalistic surrender.
11:07 AM Monday, September 04, 2006
talking to fungwee was simply hilarious. although i do not know her friend, omar. but when we talked about him, it was funny. and i learnt to poke fun at others. though i know that very long time ago. but somehow, ive curbed myself. nooooo. its so fun to run people down. hehe. that comes from a super egoistic jessica. no choice, she's brought up to enjoy dark sadistic humour.talking to derek was great. he cheered me up. with his jokes. two nice ones are enough to keep me smiling till he turned in for bed. timot was nice to me because i have his present with me. HAHA. that silly boy wants a mini soccer ball to juggle at home. i do want to see a 182 cm timot juggle a ball that is roughly 23 cm in diameter. but thanks to him i got a lot of nice songs. not all but at least enough to keep my speakers playing on. the lamest one of all should be DDTS. lol. -chuckle-and yes ive learnt what a silly fool i am. derek pointed out that people are humans who put up fake images and facades sometimes. not everyone will be real. for some reasons, i know i touched on that topic with joel before. but it never sink into me, till derek's words did. i am really stupid i guess. i have tried too hard to be optimistic to some people. so much so that i have forgotten how many times i have encountered the pain of betrayal and backstabbing; ive been too persistent. too stubborn. call me calculative. i remember all the painful times, maybe not all but those hardcore ones. i maybe now friends with those people, but they serve as a haunting past i have. but whenever i talk to them again, i would forget about the past and move on. it is really when at night and things are not going smoothly for me, i start to linger at my memories. big stupid asked me to move on and get use to things. its no use. because i still feel. im so afraid if once im immuned and numbed, i will fail to feel again. i am a coward. i will succumb to my fears, fatalistically. no question asked. i cant believe what a goddamned moron i am when i allow myself to surrender to mistakes like this, again and again. ive hurt myself, unwittingly. time after time. year after year. i have not changed. i subject myself to such humiliation and treatment. why? what the fuck for? heck. i am too soft-hearted. i want friends too much. i believe in them too much. what the future holds for me i do not know. but the only thing i am sure is, i will not move. still, i am jessica. the girl who till now, still strongly believes in friendships. and maybe... family. =)cried and grew.
Don't be shy really. I know you are itching to say something. Just try to sound clever aights? (:
Let it all go, the life that you know, just to bring it down alive
Put your heart here. D E P O S I T
We have soul, though not all are soldiers.
In memory. Let's try tracing back history and continue to make wonderful history worthy of mention.
Call the police. They are helpful though they sound sick of the world. (: They may just keep you safe.